About this episode
In this episode, the guest, Jacob D, shares his journey of addiction and recovery. He discusses how his addiction started with drugs and alcohol as a means to escape his feelings of not being good enough and fear of abandonment. Jacob talks about the traumatic experiences that further fueled his addiction, including the death of a close friend. He eventually moved to Texas to start a new life and found some stability, but continued to struggle with his addiction. The conversation covers the speaker's experiences with drugs, specifically cocaine and methamphetamine, and the impact it had on his life. He discusses his addiction, the toxic relationships it led to, and the legal consequences he faced. The speaker also talks about his time in prison, his near-death experience in a car accident, and his eventual journey towards recovery. In this conversation, the guest shares his journey from addiction to recovery and how he found purpose in helping others. He talks about his experiences with the law, his relationship with his daughter, and his growth in sobriety. The guest emphasizes the importance of being of service and staying connected to a higher power. He also discusses the transformation he experienced in treatment and the impact it had on his life. Overall, the conversation highlights the power of recovery and the ability to turn one's life around. Keywords addiction, recovery, drugs, alcohol, escape, fear of abandonment, traumatic experiences, death of a friend, stability, drugs, addiction, cocaine, methamphetamine, toxic relationships, legal consequences, prison, car accident, recovery, addiction, recovery, purpose, helping others, law, relationships, growth, sobriety, service, higher power, treatment, transformation Takeaways Addiction can stem from deep-rooted feelings of not being good enough and fear of abandonment. Traumatic experiences can further fuel addiction and perpetuate a victim mentality. Moving to a new environment can provide a fresh start, but the underlying issues of addiction may still persist. Finding stability and making positive changes in life does not necessarily mean overcoming addiction completely. Addiction can lead to toxic relationships and have severe legal consequences. The speaker's experiences highlight the dangers and negative effects of drugs like cocaine and methamphetamine. The speaker's near-death experience in a car accident served as a wake-up call, but he still struggled with addiction. The lack of awareness and education around the addictive nature of prescription drugs is concerning. The speaker's journey towards recovery involved the support of a lawyer and the realization that he needed to change his life. Recovery is a journey of growth and transformation. Helping others is a key component of staying sober and finding purpose. Being of service and staying connected to a higher power are important in maintaining sobriety. Relationships can be repaired and improved in recovery. Recovery provides an opportunity for personal growth and a chance to live a fulfilling life. Sound Bites "I've just never been okay with being me" "Driven by the fear of abandonment" "I thought he had died" "My daughter was born, we had gotten married. It was for the wrong reasons and like, you know, we're both friends today." "It was like a toxic relationship that you just can't get out of." "I was fucking wired for sound dude everywhere I went man." "I checked into treatment... Not because I wanted to, not because I had a problem. All my externals, like everybody else was my fucking problem." "I found my way into treatment, man. Like I didn't really pay much mind the first couple weeks... But then like, know, shit gets really emotional, right? Because now I'm removed from the drugs." "They mailed it to home and then my girlfriend at the time mailed it to me. Oh, okay. Mailed it to me. So you're catching more charges as you're in rehab."