ICU to Inner Peace: My Path from Alcoholism to Sobriety - Part One | EP 10

This is the rawest and most extreme story I’ve ever shared. For years, I lived trapped inside the cage of alcoholism—a poison I kept reaching for, even as it stripped me down piece by piece. It wasn’t just drinking too much. It was waking up with crushing anxiety before I even opened my eyes. It was daily panic attacks that made me feel like my chest was collapsing. It was trembling hands, cold sweats, and nights of drinking myself unconscious, only to wake up and do it all over again. What began as a way to take the edge off—something normalized by the corporate world and justified by family history—became my prison. Every tragedy, every stress, every ounce of grief only tightened the chains. When my mother passed away, my drinking went from dangerous to catastrophic. Moving to Florida was supposed to be my escape, but instead it became the setting for my complete unraveling. My body started shutting down under the abuse. I developed severe pancreatitis, and every doctor warned me that one more drink could kill me. My organs were failing. My nervous system was fried. I wasn’t just addicted—I was dying, and I knew it. Yet the pull of alcohol was so strong that even staring death in the face wasn’t enough to make me stop. I felt like a hollowed-out shell, a passenger in my own body as it crumbled. The breaking point came in a hospital bed, tubes running out of me, as I fought for my life. I remember the sterile smell of the ICU, the monitors beeping, and the terrifying realization that I might not walk out. That near-death experience ripped me wide open. It was more than just physical collapse—it was spiritual collapse. But in that collapse came the smallest spark of something I hadn’t felt in years: hope. In this two-part series, I expose every ugly detail—living with generalized anxiety disorder, the panic attacks that made me feel like I was suffocating, the organ failure that almost ended me, and the complete loss of control that alcohol had over my life. But I also share what came after: the fight to rebuild, the rebirth that came with sobriety, and the realization that no matter how far gone you think you are, there is a way back. This is not just a story about addiction. It’s about being dragged to the absolute edge of death and choosing life. If you’ve ever wondered if recovery is possible, if you’ve ever felt like you’re too far gone to turn it around, I’m living proof that you’re not. CONNECT with Jordan at ⁠ www.digijordan.com ⁠ | New episodes out every Tuesday & Thursday | Join us every Saturday night on our YouTube for a LIVE recap of the week's episodes and Q&A :) Please like and share and click the bell to get reminders! Thank YOU :) Takeaways 🧩 I experienced a disconnect between my thoughts and actions because of alcoholism. ⚖️ My life split into two halves—one consumed by alcohol, the other rebuilt in recovery. 👂 Learning to truly listen to my body and its warning signs became essential. 🌪️ Alcohol began as a coping mechanism for anxiety and depression. 🧬 Family history deeply influenced my relationship with drinking. 🏢 The corporate world normalized alcohol, hiding the struggles beneath. 💔 A family tragedy sent me into a downward spiral of deeper addiction. 🌴 Moving to Florida was meant to be an escape but only worsened my drinking. 🚗 I felt like a passenger in my own life, with alcohol behind the wheel. 🏥 My hospitalization became the turning point—sparking hope and recovery. SpectreVision Radio is a bespoke podcast network at the intersection between the arts and the uncanny, featuring a tapestry of shows exploring creativity, the esoteric, and the unknown. We’re a community for creators and fans vibrating around common curiosities, shared interests and persistent passions. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices