About this episode
Trigger Warning: This episode includes open and honest discussions about suicide attempts, mental illness, emotional abuse, and childhood trauma. Please listen with care. In this Part 2 of a 2-part series , we reconnect with Emily as she shares what life has looked like since her last suicide attempt—unpacking what real recovery feels like when it’s layered with parenting, relationship trauma, childhood emotional neglect, and navigating the pressure to “look okay” on the outside. This is a story about fighting to stay, even when your brain tries to convince you otherwise. Sh!t That Goes On In Our Heads is the 2024 People's Choice Podcast Award Winner for Health and the 2024 Women In Podcasting Award Winner for Best Mental Health Podcast , with over 2 million downloads across more than 100 countries. We’re here to normalize mental health conversations through laughter, truth-telling, and a whole lot of heart. We want to hear your thoughts on this episode: https://castfeedback.com/67521f0bde0b101c7b10442a You can leave a voice message or a written note. We listen to all of them. “I’m not proud of my story because it’s pretty—it’s ugly. But I’m proud I’m still here.” — Emily What This Episode is About Emily opens up about what came next after the suicide attempts, what healing looks like on the ground level, and the daily work it takes to quiet the internalized voices of shame. She talks about masking, being in survival mode, and the confusion of being a high-functioning person with severe depression. You’ll also hear about her struggles in romantic relationships, what it felt like to have emotional abuse reinforced in adulthood, and how becoming a parent inspired her to change the narrative in her family line. SEO Keywords: Suicide attempt recovery, high-functioning depression, emotional abuse, trauma-informed parenting, mental health support, post-attempt healing, invisible pain, self-worth, generational trauma, PTSD recovery, inner child work, coping with shame, childhood emotional neglect Meet Our Guest: Emily Emily is a trauma survivor, a nurse, a mother, and a woman doing the hard work to heal while still showing up for everyone else. In Part 1, she shared her early struggles with mental illness, beginning with cutting at age 11 and two suicide attempts before she turned 21. In this episode, she takes us deeper into the “after”—into the quiet, messy, nonlinear work of recovery. She explains how her trauma carried into her adult relationships, how she learned to identify emotional abuse in real-time, and how she’s slowly starting to believe she is worthy of being loved without condition. Emily’s story is not tied up in a neat little bow—and that’s precisely why it matters. Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/emmiewillyy/ 3 Key Takeaways You can look “fine” and still be in survival mode. High-functioning depression is real. Unresolved childhood trauma can impact every adult relationship. But awareness is power. Recovery is daily work. It’s not a one-time decision; it’s a commitment to stay. Actionable Items Use grounding tools when shame kicks in—like naming your feeling out loud or writing it down. Audit your relationships for emotional safety: Do they help you grow or keep you in patterns? If you’re struggling, reach out to someone. You don’t have to wait until you're in crisis to ask for help. Chapters & Time Stamps [00:01:22] Living With the Aftermath Emily reflects on what life looked like after her second attempt and why she thought she had to act “fine.” [00:04:45] The Masking We Learn The dangers of pretending everything is okay, even when it’s not—and how people missed the signs. [00:09:12] Surviving Toxic Love Emily shares her experience with emotionally abusive relationships and how it mirrored her childhood. [00:21:30] Parenting as a Cycle Breaker What she’s doing differently to raise her daughter with emotional honesty and safety. [00:29:55] Healing Isn’t Pretty The real, gritty parts of staying alive—and staying connected to yourself. References 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline – https://988lifeline.org The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel van der Kolk What My Bones Know by Stephanie Foo BetterHelp Online Therapy – https://www.betterhelp.com Mental Health America – https://mhanational.org Subscribe, Rate, and Review! Be sure to subscribe so you never miss an episode. 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