About this episode
What if crashing out is exactly what your soul needs to transform? In this episode of Moonbeaming, Sarah Faith Gottesdiener explores the Nine of Swords, one of the tarot’s most intense cards of collapse, grief, shadow work, and transformation. If you’re navigating grief, facing an identity shift, or feeling like you’ve hit rock bottom, this conversation will help you reframe what it means to be in the “crash out” moment. In this episode you’ll learn: Why grief and collapse can be portals to spiritual growth How the Nine of Swords reveals what is no longer sustainable Why identity dissolves in the wake of trauma healing—and what comes after How to work with ego death, shame, and shadow during rock bottom The collective and personal implications of unprocessed grief This episode is a compassionate guide for anyone moving through crisis, deep grief, or major life change — offering permission to pause, process, and allow transformation to unfold. To Note: If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts or feel unsafe, please know you are not alone and there is support available. United States: Call or text the National Suicide & Crisis Lifeline at 988 for free, confidential support, 24/7. Canada: Call Talk Suicide Canada at 1-833-456-4566 or text 45645 , available 24/7. Domestic Violence (U.S. & Canada): If you are experiencing domestic violence, you can reach out to the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233 (SAFE) or chat online at thehotline.org . In Canada, you can also contact the Assaulted Women’s Helpline at 1-866-863-0511 or text 1-866-863-7868 . Moon Studio workshop reminder: June 29th: The Constellation of the 9's: The Hermit, The Moon, & the 9's: https://moon-studio.co/products/the-constellation-of-the-9s-the-hermit-the-moon-the-9s Join the Moon Studio community: Join the Moon Studio Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/themoonstudio Buy the 2025 Many Moons Lunar Planner: https://moon-studio.co/collections/all-products-excluding-route/products/many-moons-2025 Subscribe to our newsletter: https://moon-studio.co/pages/newsletter Find Sarah on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/gottesss/