Radical Acceptance (When Things Get HARD) | Ep. 366

Radical acceptance when things get hard can be a very difficult practice. In fact, it can be almost impossible. When things get hard, one of the things we often do is we spend a lot of time ruminating about why it's so hard and what we could have done to prevent it from being so hard. And, instead of using radical acceptance , we often go into beating ourselves up, telling ourselves, "We should have done this; we could have done that. If only we had looked at it this way or treated it this way." I want us to really zoom in on these safety behaviors that you're probably doing. Hopefully, today, you leave here committing to reducing or eliminating those behaviors. Now, I get it. When things are hard, we don't want to feel the suffering that goes with it. I get it. I don't want to feel it either. You're not alone. But when things are hard, often, instead of letting it be hard and feeling our feelings and being kind to ourselves so that we can move into effective behaviors, we get stuck resisting the emotions and doing these other behaviors that increase the shrapnel of the event. I call it 'shrapnel' because it does look like that. It creates more damage around us. Let's look at how we might prevent this. HUMANS SUFFER You're suffering. The reason I know this is because you're a human being, and all human beings have sufferings in their lives. Some of us, more than others. If you're in a season where the suffering is high, I would basically say, the higher the level of suffering, the more you need to listen in. Maybe listen to this multiple times, get your notepad out, and let's really go to work. SOLVING DOESN'T ALWAYS WORK When you're suffering and your suffering is high, again, it's very normal to want to solve why you're suffering, thinking that yes, that may prevent it from happening in the future, prevent us from having more pain, or prevent us from having to feel our feelings. That's effective behavior, except... if you're relying on that and you're spending too much time doing that, chances are, you're increasing your shrapnel. If that's the case, let's talk about other alternatives. When we're going through difficult things, there is a strong pull toward figuring out why. But my guess is, if you haven't solved it yet, chances are you won't. I know this is true for me. It might be true for you, but you've probably already identified the problem of one of the things that may be if, in 20/20 hindsight, you could have done differently. And that's okay, right? There's many times I've looked back and been like, "Yeah, it didn't handle that well," or "That didn't go as well. Maybe now, knowing what I know, I could have done something different." But often, we spend too much time resisting the fact that it is hard right now. If you're someone who's spending a lot of time going over and over on repetition, all the things you could have done, chances are, you're not radically accepting what is. What we want to do first is move to radical acceptance as fast as we can. We're not saying that you can't go back and do some effective addressing of what went wrong and what went right. You can do that for short periods of time. But if you're someone who's doing it repetitively, catch yourself. We want to move into radical acceptance that yes, things are hard right now. WHY DOES RADICAL ACCEPTANCE SUCK? Often, we resist practicing radical acceptance because of one core reason, and that's because we don't want to feel bad. We don't want to feel the guilt. We don't want to feel shame. We don't want to feel the uncertainty. We don't want to feel sad. We don't want to feel angry, grief, or panic, whatever it might be. It might be physical pain. We don't want to feel it. And so hand in hand goes this work of radically accepting the suffering that you're experiencing in whatever form, whether it be emotional, physical, spiritual, or other, and then really being willing and creating a safe place to feel those feelings. I'm not saying ruminate on those feelings, make them worse, or agree with everything you're thinking and feeling. No. I'm just saying, being able to observe that yes, sadness is here, or grief is here, or anxiety is here. It's showing up in these ways in my chest, in my head, in my shoulders, in my neck, in my hips, in my tummy, wherever it's showing up for you. First radically accepting it and then being willing to feel those experiences and those sensations. We alternate between those two. We radically accept, then be willing and open. Then we have to go back and radically accept, be willing, and be open. RADICAL ACCEPTANCE IS REPETITIVE I want to remind you that it's okay that you have to do this on repeat. Often, with my patients—and I do this too, I have to admit—we practice radical acceptance , we practice self-compassion, we practice willingness for a little while, and then we get frustrated because it's not making it go away. It's not fixing it. It's not making it disappear. So we go back to trying to solve, "Why is this happening? Why shouldn't it be this way? What did I do wrong?" instead of knowing that this is a repetitive practice that we commit to over and over again. It's like brushing our teeth. We don't do it once and go, "Great, it should be done." No, we go back, and we've accepted that we'll do it every morning and we'll do it every night. For some of you, at lunchtime too. I really want you guys to catch this deep urge and urgency to resist what really is and resist the feelings that go ahead and accompany that experience. We want to move back as fast as we can into radically accepting that it is what it is. RESISTING RADICAL ACCEPTANCE Now, if you're anything like me, a part of your brain is going to go, "But it's not fair. This is not fair. It is too much. Other people don't seem to be having these problems. It's not fair that I have this problem. It's not fair that mine is so big right now and theirs is not." I get that too. Also just acknowledge, you may even want to just validate and go, "Yeah, this is my season. They'll have theirs." I promise you, they'll have theirs. Hopefully not. We don't want to spread more pain around. But with being a human, it's 50/50. It's 50% hard and 50% wonderful, and that's a part of being human. They'll have their season; you're in yours. It is temporary. Again, resist the urge to stay in the rumination of "It's not fair." You can validate that by going, "Yes, it is not fair. This is a hard deck of cards that I've been dealt right now. I'm going to again try to reduce the shrapnel by not engaging in the why me and why did this happen and it shouldn't have, and it's not fair." I want to also say it's okay that you land there. That is a normal part of the grief process to land in that bargaining phase of grief. What we're really speaking to today is when you get caught in that. I NEED RADICAL ACCEPTANCE TOO Now, I am speaking to you about this because I needed to hear this message more than any of you today. This is actually as much for me as it is for you. I think that as I go through very difficult seasons in my life, I find them incredibly humbling because it helps me to see the story that I have told myself, the story that things should go well for me, that things shouldn't be hard, that I shouldn't suffer as much as I do in certain areas, that I should somehow magically be able to solve this or control this, and that other people want me to be able to handle this, so therefore, I should be able to. I forget my humanness. I keep getting humbled by my humanness. I feel like the world keeps coming to show me, "Kimberley, you're just like everybody else." Everybody suffers. How can you lean in and have this be an opportunity to deepen your self-compassion practice, deepen your mindfulness practice, and deepen your ability to feel any emotion that shows up? Because they will, many times in my lifetime. They will continue to show up in different ways because I'm a human, not because I'm a faulty person. All humans have these feelings. For you, you also have to remember, these are normal human feelings. You didn't do anything wrong. It's not your fault that you're having them so strong right now. Resist the urge to go into self-punishment for the fact that you're suffering. Again, radically accept that it is painful right now, and then move into willingness and openness to feel those feelings and create the safest, softest, gentlest landing for you as you navigate these really difficult emotions. As you do it, not to replace it, not to make them go away, but to help guide you through them. YOU CANNOT BYPASS EMOTIONS You can't bypass emotions. I have learned that one the hard way. You can't bypass them. If you do, you're probably increasing your problems. If you're doing compulsions to get your uncertainty and your anxiety to go away, you're going to have more of that obsession. If you're avoiding the thing that's hard, you're probably going to feel disempowered, and it's going to be a bigger problem. If you're resisting your emotions and you're resisting your experience, at some point, they will probably blow up and explode, and you'll feel them a lot. Our job, again—and this is my goal for myself, and I hope it's your goal too—is I want to be a place, a container. I want to be able to experience the full range of emotional experiences safely so that in the future, when hard days come, when I lose loved ones, when I go through hard times, when I witness difficult things, I already know that I have the ability to wade through this. WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE YOU CANNOT HANDLE IT ANYMORE The people who are struggling with "I can't handle this," they're the ones who have done everything they can to avoid feeling their feelings, and they haven't gotten much experience with learning to master emotions. When we do learn that we can have emotions and we do learn that we can tolerate them, then we do learn that we can ride them out. There's a sense of empowerment, like, "I can do really, really hard things." As I'm navigating a tough season, I'm actually blown away and in awe of myself, knowing that I can handle a lot. I've handled a lot in other difficult seasons in my life, and I come out of it usually being like, "Wow." Actually pretty impressed. I feel that way, especially when I stay out of that sort of rumination. I call it the inner tantrum. I have a tantrum like, "It's not fair, and it shouldn't be." RADICAL ACCEPTANCE SUMMARY I wanted to make this a very quick episode. Hopefully, it's exactly what you needed to hear. Number one, if you're in a difficult season, that doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you. That's just a human thing. Number two, if you're in a difficult season, let's back off from trying to solve what you could have done better because, coulda, woulda, shoulda, it's all 20/20 hindsight. You had no idea. Let's just leave that alone. Be very aware of that and work towards catching it and moving towards radical acceptance , willingness, and self-compassion. If you're somebody who really needs to improve your self-compassion, we have a whole mindfulness vault called The Meditation Vault. You can go to CBTSchool.com, and it will guide you through self-compassion practices that were led by me. It's all audio. It's all there. I'll teach you how to do it, and that hopefully will help you have my voice in your head so that you can start to practice self-compassion no matter what shows up for you, no matter what emotion you're experiencing, no matter what hardship you're experiencing. I hope that's helpful. Have a wonderful day. I'm sending you all the love, and I will talk to you next week.